Journal | On Becoming Our Full Potential

live your dream

Tonight, as I was on the phone catching up with a friend, we explored the possibilities of the future from COVID-19, what we do at home to pass the time, our jobs, and our mutual longing to go back to traveling. By the end of it, we happened to touch the subject of dreams and long-term life goals.

I was slapped right in the face as he asked me, “what’s yours?”, right after he dissected his ideal long-term plans over the phone.

I paused and felt a bit humiliated, frankly, for not remembering what I actually wanted and what I set out to live for.

Back in college, when a professor asked us to write about where do we see ourselves in ten year’s time, I remember writing a short essay about wanting to perform on Broadway or West End. I also dreamed of becoming a theater or film director in the local art scene. 4 years after I wrote it, my living is nowhere near the theater, or any stage, for that matter.

I explained to my friend that plans change and, besides, I needed money which the theater alone cannot provide for me. I cannot say I completely believed in my own explanation. Ever since, there’s something inside of me gnaws at the fact that if I was ambitious and persevering enough I can do whatever I want. That all the need to work for money so I can have something to provide for myself everyday is just a lame excuse.

I jokingly added that I was a coward, that’s why this dream of mine is put off. And this bit, albeit shrugged as a joke, is something I believe in.

To compensate for my lack of conviction towards my dreams, I told him that I also wanted to publish a book in the future; that this plan is already on the works since a few years ago, already half-executed. I guess at the back of my mind I’ve always thought that publishing a book is more plausible than actually performing on Broadway and West End.

But this gets me thinking: What hinders us from becoming the person we always wanted to be? And whatever the reason may be, why do we allow it to stunt us into becoming our full potential? Is it cowardness? Lack of conviction? Laziness? Fear of rejection?

If there’s any blessing this pandemic has brought upon us is that we have nothing but too much time in our hands. A time which we can use as an opportunity to reflect on whether or not what we do in our every day lives is a one step closer to becoming our full potential.

I hope one day when I get asked of the same question I will not hesitate and pause for a moment because I already have a definite answer.

 


 

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11 thoughts on “Journal | On Becoming Our Full Potential

  1. Miriam E. Miles says:

    Such a resonating piece – I have found over the years that no matter how hard my and fears and anxiety try to squash, bury or burn my core desire to write, the words resurge, more powerfully each time.

    Finally in November last year, after an unexpected redundancy, my days became crystal clear and I collated and published my first poetry collection.

    Now I find myself lurching awkwardly toward being a full-time writer as I have no other real options, the words chasing me down once more and me finally giving in.

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    1. Danica Aquino says:

      That’s incredible, Miriam. Congratulations! I’m glad everything is turning out the way it is for you. You inspire me to move forward, as I’m also currently in the process of collating my poetry collection, and soon to self publish, I hope 😊

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    2. Miriam E. Miles says:

      Awesome! I found myself unexpectedly motivated and the momentum carried me through. Getting the physical book in my hands felt like such a milestone for my life. Worth every moment!

      Like

  2. habiwabi says:

    Related to this so much. I agree that goals can change, this is a part of growth, but it is so so important to be aware of our own personal needs: what fulfills us to the core? This is the thing we should reach for
    Also thanks for dropping by my blog! 🙂

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  3. The Strong Traveller says:

    It is absolutely relatable to me. At a point in life even I suddenly saw a shift in my dreams and aspirations, the one for which I was really passionate about. I didn’t understand why. And it still sometimes happens. But I think I am at a better space now.

    But I know life never goes the way we expect it to. But it is still important to have goals and stick to them.

    Best wishes from The Strong Traveller and have a great day

    Do check out my blog. There is some travel and lifestyle content which you may find interesting. We try to come up with new and interesting things every day. Do follow if you like it 🙂

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    1. Danica Aquino says:

      Life goals are one of the constant things that change in all of us. Depending on where our lives are headed to, I think most of us, if not all, have steered our direction one way or another.

      Thanks for dropping by! Will do check your site 🙂

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